Once in 2011 - and here we are in March 2012!
Maybe that's how my blogs will go, just once a year, I don't know really.
What's happened? Well..not much has changed perhaps that's why I haven't blogged. Perhaps it's cuz I'm lazy or too busy thinking of reasons I should get off my ass. Who knows?
One thing that I've discovered...middle age hurts. Fuckin aches and pains that I've never had before in places I didn't know existed. It sucks. Why does getting older start to hurt so much? Our bodies should have spare parts like a car does. When an arm hurts and is heavy, just replace it with a new, lighter model. When your tummy has a hole or perforation or ulcer or gallbladder or whatever ails you, reach in - pull it out and replace it with a cleaner, more energy efficient brand. I should buy stock in advil, aspirin, zantac, midol and melatonin. Peeing 700 times a night, waking up 300 times a night. When you're up almost 1000 times per night, sleep goes right out the window! It is amazing how little sleep a person can survive on the older they get. I used to need 8 - 10...now, I can manage on 5. Why? Cuz I'm up fuckin peeing all night long - imagine what would happen to me if I drank after 8pm!
Parental units - still fighting and bitching at each other. I just don't understand. Hello Mom, hello dad...it's done. Move on..I don't understand the need to make people suffer (ok, I do), but there's a time when you have to stop and that time has long since passed for them. It crushes me to the core to see how they think of each other after all that time together. No matter what anyone says, the two people that made the marriage wreck the marriage. There's a reason that people fall out of love with each other or look elsewhere and one needs to look no further than a mirror. The responsibility is shared. Not necessarily 50/50 and it might even be 99% vs 1% but it's shared. I love my parents, but damn it, they both need a good swift kick in the ass as far as I'm concerned. Sigh...
Love life..what love life? Actually, I do have one..I finally after 41 years and some months..wait for it...love myself! WHAT THE HELL?? yes, it's true - I actually love myself! I'm finally able to see what is good in me! It's been there all along, I just didn't know where to find it! Sometimes it runs and hides, but I'm getting better at finding it. I had to take some finding lessons to do that, but so glad I did.
Life in general? Was 2011 a good year? Better than most I've had for a while. I've taken the road I started on in 2011 and kept following it, which has taken some twists and turns, but I think I'm on a pretty straight path today as I move into my 'middle aged' years.
I might blog again - maybe this is just a place for me to talk to myself. Which is fairly weird, but I must confess - I'm not the straightest noodle in the package, so it's ok with me.
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